Friday, August 31, 2012


The Ego. Deemed to be dangerous. In the east, the ego is deemed as a dangerous part of any person capable to destroying that person completely. In the west, it is praised but only when controlled. Uncontrolled, the west too terms is monstrous. I only recognized this recently. My ego. It is an integral part of me. It is what holds me together. I have certain unconventional ideas, that often. Earn me. More enemies than friends. My ideas I like. I have to protect them. That only viable mechanism is to prevent them from becoming known. But then. What is the use of such an idea that cannot be used. My idea are unconventional. My understanding of the ego is the same. It is huge. Monstrous even. But is does not have a form. It is not a solid blob of my psyche. No. It is a huge web. That binds. Holds me. It contains me. The Ego. It helps us live through so many phases of our lives. We don't appreciate it enough. You can even find God there. Ego is not your self respect. It is not your belief in your abilities. It is your belief that you will survive the world. Fare against it. Its that voice that make you stare and say "Come at me!" Ego is not saying I am important. Ego is saying. I am me!

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

That Place

You know that place where every thing is tangled. Every thought, just jumbles up. They are distinct. The thoughts. The ideas. But they are tangled. Now amongst themselves. No. They are tangled. Strangely so too. I think this the natural state. For me. Atleast. I don't know about other people. All those other places that I go to. I don't stay there long. I come back to this place. I am stuck.

Friday, August 24, 2012


Staying up late, getting up late. Working without a schedule. I am back to that. Yes I am.

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Eid Mubarak

Eid Mubarak to everyone!!!! Have fun!!! and even if you can't just smile

Saturday, August 18, 2012


I feel tired. I am. But a part of me refuses to believe it. To a part of me. It is strange really. Also, in other news.  Eid is near. I met some nice people. Not met. Just found out they exist. So. My eyes are burning.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Saturday, August 11, 2012

A Part of Me

Sometimes I think about the disparities of the world and the incivilities prevalent there in. The burden that these thoughts have on my soul. Woe and despair. This is all that comes of mind. With a millions dying and thousands suffering these thoughts sometimes drive me to the brinks of humanity. And then I think about all the choices that I have made and it turns that I was not so different. In gloom and blight, perpetually stayed the evil. All about me. And then for once I think that the world will change and the plight of the millions may end. But to no avail, is any change. Or so may be it seems to me. The only real remedy is yet to be found. Until then, then I shall lead my life in a disparaging manner.

~ the other me

Monday, August 6, 2012