I feel disturbed. Unfocused. Weavering in my resolve for the past couple of days. But its a good thing in a way. I now have to focus harder, extert more effort. And all of this will only make me stronger. There is only so little that is here, what I wrote, I don't write much now anymore. I don't know why I don't do that any more. I think it may be bacause I am forgetting how to write creatively, that may be the reason. You never know. It is never a good idea to think too much if you are not naturally capable of doing so. Me, I don't really think and sometimes stumble on something that may be very very useful and quite viable. Other times, it just is pure luck.