Monday, May 9, 2016

Decadent State

This is a point where I think I am gone past madness and into a decadent state.

Friday, May 6, 2016

There is no point

These days I don't think much. Or so I've convinced myself I don't. Really don't know. That is the state of existence these days. Its not confusion or filled with uncertainty like it was before, the outcomes are certain. There just isn't any motivation to ride through it. Even going with the flow would require some motivation. I just rest there. I am writing blog post out of sheer boredom. Cause I haven't got anything better to do.

This is life. Boring. This is life. Boring. This is life. This is boring. This is life, this is very very boring. There is not any motivation to do anything remotely new or exciting. This is life, it is boring. This is life, it is not hard its just boring. This is life, there is nothing in it to entertain me for now. This is life, it is turning out to be quite disappointing. This is life, there is nothing here to have fun with. This is life, nothing will ever change, this is stagnation, the end of all things viable and rational. This is not a nice way to proceed.

What are we doing anyway, there is no point to any of this. What are we doing with anything, nothing has no meaning. There is no point in any of this happening. This is wasteful. This is tedious but it is not entertaining me. I may already have lost my mind. Gone past the quarter to insane thing and actually be half past mad. I don't know. I don't know anything. Its all so confusing. It is so complicated and difficult.

This is no point to it all. Help me. Please. Let me out. Show me the way out. Show me the way. I want to go. I want out of here. I was not meant to be here for so long. I want out. Release me. Release me. I want out! NOW!!! RELEASE ME.....................................................

Monday, January 18, 2016

Choas Be Mine

I feel devoid, empty. Today. I lack a purpose. Or I lost it maybe. I'll find it again. I need to switch goals. I'll focus on you for a while now. What say?